uberMuffins

To be blunt, dealing with fear is hard. Tantalizing, Imposing, Life-Ending fear. And to clearly express what you need to say, you have to think it over and over and over. I have a fear to be perfect. I have a fear of failure. I have a fear of vulnerability. I have a fear of insuperiority. I have a fear of change. I have a fear of fear! Despite the institutionalized doubt, I repeat these fears over and over and over. In my mind, I hear so many thoughts, so fast. To think a coherent thought is almost impossible. I don't talk about it, I can't talk about it. It's all one big joke. But I know it's an illness. Anxiety over big things, little thing

Ive been feeling more blue than pink, Look on my wall and tell me what you think. Im always changing even though im naught. Seriously, help me, im always stuck in thought.

For the good people of my own kind, why must we do this? Why must we hate upon what is not our own? Why must we hurt, why must we sacrifice, why must we inflict conflict that could have been avoided? I have been lied to, I have been scarred by our people. Our people, our workers, even our own rulers such as my father. I am not a complete person because of your rules. And I only know this by my father after years of my life had passed, right before his was over. I have had to sacrifice over and over again for you and others to continue the… the traditions upheld that no longer make sense! No longer fit today's standards, today's life!